I'm not sure if you know this, but there's a voice inside my head.
I constantly am at odds with it.
Even though I agree with what has been said.
There's a light that brightens inside me whenever you are near.
It's not something I can help; truthfully it fills me with a bit of fear.
There are things that you could do to me that would leave me trembling and overloaded.
I'm not sure if I should tell you that, or if you really already know it.
I think there's more beneath me, I know there is in you.
The voice inside my head is speaking telling me that I should follow through.
Instead I'm going to sit here and just take what I can get.
There's a mixed emotion in me that doesn't want to let you do something and make you feel bad about what we'd both want to do. Even if it's in the moment... I'd do these things sober. I don't think you'd do the same, which really makes we wonder, your thoughts, or if you're just trying to behave....?