Some times I think you hate me
there's nothing I can do. 
I'll sit and resign myself into nothing. 
There's an abyss growing. 
I'm becoming a black hole. 
It's time to let go.

I'm beginning to lose my patience
The stars know I've lost my mind
My anger has been building
I'm going numb inside. 

My misery is enhanced
I'm not sure what motions to go through
Joy and happiness absolved;
I stand in front of the mirror and ask 'who are you?'

I'm looking inside myself
trying to figure out just what I feel.

What I'm looking at
resembles this massive tangled mess
of multicolored yarn

Each color resembles an emotion

Love, adoration, hope, fear, wrath, greed...

Different morals

Each time I'm just pulling at a strand and it's wrapping tighter

I'll see the beginnings but never the ends at this point...

I'm losing it.

Maybe I never had it

Who knows

My head is aching

It's time for sleep

There's something stirring in the darkness,
I feel it humming under my skin.
Those things nailing me to my sanity
are fighting a battle they can't win.

There's an electric charge 
crawling through the air, 
lightening flashes
in someones nightmare.
Fingertips brush
over wet leaves, 
the sky trembles low-
like it does in my dreams. 
Rain wash away
all my suffering and doubt. 
Let the electrical storm
end joys drought. 

Slide between the sheets
Satin glides across bare skin
The stars are shining in eyes
This is a game we both spin
Let's set up a trap
we lay in waiting
I want to feel more
my limbs are shaking
Fingers caress
as teeth bite down
We'll change positions 
from bed to ground

I am unnamed in my own existence
as I stand beneath the stars.
Each and every thing in our universe
is scattered with scars.

Craters formed from time,
erosion at it's prime.

There are those that feel lost,
or damaged by these marks.

If tears turn to crystal
and drop from up high.
I just want you to know,
that this is goodbye.
I'm sorry if your hurting,
I know I'm causing pain,
I can't deal with the sadness,
and living a lie is insane.
I'm pushed against a wall,
it's hard enough to breath.
The walls have closed in,
there's no escape to leave.

I am staring into the sky
a mixture of blue, rose, yellow, purple hues.
I want to float away in it.
I want to feel the air race across me as I plummet through clouds.
To feel the weight of aether fill my being
Till my feet touch the ground I'll feel free.
Till I crumble and fall I'll feel strong
I feel that anything is possible.

Blue eyes,

weakened knees,

blood igniting,

heart screaming please.

Clenching fists,

hips that sway,

staying close,

but so far away.

Ache inside,

pupils dilate,

stay on track,

have to wait.

Head is foggy,

breath is short,

thoughts go crazy.

imagining force.

Fingers slip

between the water,

water goes cold,

body gets hotter.

Whimpers escape,

teeth dig in,

toes tingle,

the fun does begin.

If I scream from the roof tops
I still don't think that you'd hear. 

We're all a little sinful, 
and we're wound up with fear. 

Stitched together with grace, 
glossed over in faith. 

Bathed in light we stand, 
yet filled in shadowed hate. 

My fingers are bleeding.
I'm not sure what to do.
I'm sitting here in the dark,
thinking about you. 

I let loose my hair
and try to calm down. 
I've moved from sitting, 
I'm laying on the ground. 

I can't see a thing, 
but I can tell you that it's cold. 
Freezing glides across exposed flesh
as I think I'm not going to get old. 

I'm sitting here contemplating, 
thinking of the words you threw my way. 
It drives me to insanity, 
knives whisper to me and my mind begins to sway. 

Colder metal rests
on sensitive skin. 
Enough pressure and pain
release liquid sin. 

My body trembles, 
there are no more tears to shed. 
My heart was broken open, 
into damnation I am led. 

Hearts desire on the wind
Opening my mouth releases sin

No mistakes I cannot make
Opinions of me are those you take

I can do no more right as long as I breathe
So take me down where the earth won't let me leave