Cut the Cord

"I look into the past and I wonder where the future will lead me

I'm tired of the accusations that I'm feeling in my soul

Maybe they're right

Maybe they're wrong

I want to be over this

I want to stop thinking that I'll be okay

I just want to be okay

I want to be able to pass this day like it's any other day

Like it's a Saturday night and I'm just hanging out with friends

Today should mean nothing

but it means something...

Something that I want to be rid of.

Something that made who I am today.

When will it stop hurting?

When will I finish crossing this bridge?

There are those who love me.

There are those I know I can depend on in my life. "

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That's what I feel for you.

That is how I hope you feel.

My friend is hurting and I'm not there but I want to be.

I want you to know that I'm there for you.

This is for you. These next few days are for you.

I'm here if you need me.

Sometimes we just need someone to be sad with.

I'll be sad with you, even from so far away.

I wish you weren't hurting,

I wish you weren't so sad.

I'd call to make you laugh

I'd make those dirty jokes that are bad.

hopefully soon I can come and visit.

If not I'm still a phone away

You can call me any time

You can call me any day.

Go get some art done

and work some things out of your system?

I know when I have these intense things...

Art is how we deal with emotion
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I'm dedicating this song by Shinedown to you.

I think it fits the day. Even just a little bit.

I'm sure it doesn't hurt any less than it did before.
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Let's think of some happy times, even if I was so annoying in the beginning. ;)

2 am cookies, and me trying to mix dough with my hands.

Drawing late into the night and coloring together.

Taking turns reading books, while we both had fun on Gaia.

Skinny dipping in the moonlight!

Going off-roading, spending nights at your place.

Pizza and Smirnoff.....

Oval-tine...

My horrible cooking in cast iron pans - you dominated that like I never could.

Listening to music and just listening in the dark.

Kiowa sodas.

.. I know that you're sad.

I really wish you weren't.

I hope you smile today.

Laugh a bit even though you hurt.

So many big hugs,

cheeky kisses for you.

:-p  My soul sister forever,

always and true.