I will never be a priority

For anyone besides myself. 

I will never accomplish anything that

I have not set a goal for. 

I am lonely in my soul. 

I'm crying out to fill this hole. 

I'm failing. 

Failing. Failing. Failing. 

The air in this place

That I should call my home

Is tainted in silence

Exposing us all. 

There is no going back

It's all push and pull. 

Those I hold dear

They're all that I have. 

The one who should count most

Blasts at them and it's sad. 

I'm torn between two beautiful souls

And trying to figure out how I'll be able to grow. 

My testament is this

I can't seem to carry

The weight the world gives me

It's just getting too heavy. 

If I stumble and fall

Ignore my call. 

I'm used to it. 

I'm failing and lonely

I don't know who can see

There are aspects that are broken

Irreparable damage in me.